so yeah the goal of this was to start again with this blog business and keep track of my thoughts and whatever the fuck else, and it's been nearly a month since my last post. believe me when i say that there have been a lot of thoughts and a lot of goings on, and they mysteriously are not found here.

my mind has been sort of all over the place, actually. and by that i typically mean not here at school. shocker. things are actually going mostly well. but i am feeling very anxious about a lot of things, and honestly that is sort of hard to shake. i think this week will be a good turning point, though. i have my accounting final from last semester, and no matter what comes of that, at the very least it will be nice to have that business behind me. i have been working on it, so i wouldn't think i would do badly, but i need to do well enough to make up for some of the other tests from that class that were let's just say less than they needed to be. besides that, fall break is this weekend, and i will be so happy to be able to go home and be able to actually spend time with my family and friends there. i've missed them all so much.

not that that lessens the friends i have here, because without them, i would be so lost most of the time. but i'm sure all of them are dealing with the same or at least similar circumstances and need a moment away from it all.

those are the primary things on my mind. my car is having tire difficulties which i really just can't think about because i'll go into hysterics. i know that would not be the end of the world, but if something is wrong and it doesn't get my ass to d-town this weekend because of it - god forbid - then it will not be a pretty picture. a woman destroyed. lol. and my phone has finally crossed over and i will have to get this new one activated finally, which isn't so much of a problem...it's a challenge. and i will get to that. eventually.

until then, i'm shut off to the world besides instant messaging, emails, and really everything else besides the phone, actually. and that's pretty much it for now. contemplating a drastic haircut this weekend. we will see if i have the balls to go through with that. it's likely i will not. but i'm not ruling it out.

listening to: darren hayes - "random blinking light"