this week... i'm tellin you. so now i'm pretty sure i have a sinus infection. i'm going to the health services tomorrow if i can. maybe i'll go in between marketing and dr. maaaans' class just so i can be late and piss her off. slightly vindictive, i realize, but i am feeling really hateful right now. i keep getting these chills that won't go away and have just finished my 4th shower of the day. i'm also really dehydrated - fevers and diabetes are not to be mixed. i'm achy and my stomach feels really crampy and not good.

all that being said, i have a lot of work to get through for this week. and boy am i excited about that! GET ME THE HELL OUTTA ASHEVILLE!!! please.... i'm sooo sick of this place right now. not my friends or anything, but just this dorm, these classes. same shit everyday. i just want to be home in my big bed and see my family and my friends at home. and just relax.

i do get to talk to my counselor here on friday and i'm glad that's coming up. because all this shit is cyclical and i'm feeling it come back around and i'm really scared about a lot of things and they come in and out of my mind and keep me constantly on the verge of tears. i started crying on the phone with my dad tonight out of frustration. i'm just so tired of this existence. i feel like my life has escaped me somehow and i'm stuck in the mundane bullshit grind of the day to day.

now i have to do a topic of the week (kill. my. soul.) for dr. maaannns' class which i love so dearly. who knew that i'd be the lucky one to learn all about databases and software in such an amazing class!? what a joke.

i'm not amused.

listening to: "bring me some water" - melissa etheridge & joan osborne
(marshall and jen, you'd be proud right now ;)