the past couple weeks have been really ridiculously bad. i'm not exactly sure why but i have been really miserable and a monumental fuckup on pretty much all fronts. that's not to say that there haven't been good points, but there could really be some mo. so i didn't sleep very well last night and i'm awake and have no interest in really doing anything important at all, so i'm attempting to post in my forever neglected blog.

i'm heading to d-town for the weekend, which i'm hoping will help brighten my spirits. i think i just need the change of scenery and to see my family and friends back home for a bit. sometimes going home is worse because it's really hectic and crazed beyond belief trying to see everyone. but i'm optimistic, mostly.

i of course have done no packing of things. no one is surprised. and this trip back will be a lot of stuff because i need to take some of the summer clothes back home and bring some cold weather shit cause it's not a joke at this point and my little hoodie and jean jacket are not cutting it. so i may end up leaving like at 8 or something horrfying like i tend to do. i'm really hoping i can motivate and get it all together so i'm not getting home at midnight.

do i really have 3 classes today? that is not a good look. i can't promise that i'll stay awake in any of them. that's all i'm sayin.

listening to: rahsaan patterson - "you make life so good"