so this past week was really rough on me. who's surprised, really?

i did go take care of something that had been worrying me a lot for months. now i just wait. you can probably guess what it is i'm talking about, and if you can't, maybe that's ok too. i don't feel comfortable going into detail about those types of things on here.

i took my second finance exam, and despite being very worryied about it, i feel like i did fairly well. we'll see. i ran into my econ history professor that day, also, who i adore. she's the funniest and most sarcastic person, but also really understanding and kind. she asked me how school was going and how my health was, and i gave her a brief rundown. i feel badly for not keeping up with the professors i really like. i didn't do that well in her class, though, so i think embarassment or guilt is a part of that particular situation. maybe i can work on some sort of visit situation somehow.

in other news of school, i'm fairly certain i'm going to withdraw from my IT class. i've fallen woefully behind in that class, and i emailed dr. maaaannns on wednesday to ask her some important questions about two big assignments due tomorrow, and she has not gotten back to me, so i'm basically ass up. if you're a professor you should check your emails more often than that. christ. i'm going to go ahead and interview my friend for the interview project we had to do, because i will probably take her class again in the fall. see eventhough i really don't like her, at least i'll know what to expect. that's my feeling on that at least.

i'm home right now. i drove home to get my taxes done with my parents. sounds fun, right? haha. well the accountant did all the work, so it was fine by me. and afterwards my parents and i went to the movies. we saw amazing grace, which i thought was really great and inspiring. it made me want to do something revolutionary. then we had japanese for dinner. when we got home my mom and i watched the rescuers down under, and my brother came home in the middle. after that i finished my physics homework.

i've been really tired recently. i think i'm worried about a lot of things and don't feel up to deal with them, so i sleep a lot. it fluctuates, though. i feel really good sometimes, but then really hopeless others. i don't feel very connected with my life at the moment. at least parts of it. i don't feel connected with asheville. i wake up and i'm like, oh yeah... this. hmmm. i find it hard to connect the dots that have led me to the places and contexts i find myself.

waiting for my laundry to finish. i will head back to school shortly-ish. i don't really look forward to driving that much today. sometimes it's great, but yeah not today. i don't want to leave home. i feel much more connected with this part of my life right now. but oh well.

listening to: the peter malick group feat. norah jones - "strange transmissions (dj strobe bossa nova remix)"