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"$5000!!!!"

the business of the day.

1) not to fall asleep in class. 2) read some shit. 3) buy some shit.

i can check (minus) the first one off.
and the others still remain open so far.

who's tired today? anyone? oh yeah that's right, it's me.

besides that, though, errything's good.

listening to: andy caldwell & jay-j - give a little
"...baby you're taking too much"

marshall and i are in d-town. holla.

i can't get enough of this song recently, and i was on you tube and randomly found a video, so i had to put it up and rep for gina rene



i'm so glad i only have one class today.

more to come later. just was excited about this video. :)

ok so school has begun and i have to say that it feels extremely odd to be here. exactly why it feels so strange i'm not sure. that said, it is definitely wonderful to see everyone.

i'm not sure if anyone is reading the new blog, but it has been nice to at least feel like i have a place to put some of my thoughts. for a long time i have been feeling like i really didn't have anywhere or anyone to share things with. which was sort of really empty.

i have a bit of homework to do tonight. nothing extreme by any means, so i will start on that in a minute. i just have a lot on my mind. i talked to my mom today and she didn't sound like herself and i asked her if something wass wrong and she said yes but didn't tell me what was going on. i'm just a little worried mainly because it's so hard to understand what a person is going through over the phone.

i'm missing my friends at home already. i feel sorta alone sometimes here, even though i have friends up here as well. and it's hard to get lost in work or anything so early in the game.

i didn't realize this was going to be such a heavy entry, but i guess i needed to express these feelings somehow. i'll post a lighter one tomorrow, i promise.

listening to: the peter malick group feat. norah jones - strange transmissions (dj strobe "sand under my havianas" bossa nova remix)

day one. it's all a bit surreal at this point. will definitely post more about the craziness that will inevitably ensue. for now i'm heading out to class with california love in my head... lol.

"shake it cali"

it has to be noted for future reference that at this point, this day in my life, my running-lateness has reached a crest if you will. one that is absolutely utterly ridiculous. i need serious intervention on some shit.

this means i will most likely be getting to school to move in - the day before classes no less - in the evening. complete mess. school simply should not start tomorrow because some of us are turning inside out trying to get everything together, and once again, not to sound like a broken record, but...

it's not a good look.

listening to: "summer rain (can7 splash mix)" - etro anime
"but i think too much and i'm left to blame feeling strangely the same"

"me, myself, & i"

while my laundry is washing...

i-tunes survey... hit forward to answer each question, and no cheating!

1. how am i feeling today?: "no ordinary love" - sweet coffee
2. will i get far in life?: "go back home" - the strike boys (...oh dear)
3. how do my friends see me?: "with you" - monica (...soooo old skool lol)
4. where will i get married?: "all in my head" - kosheen (...ouch! i don't wanna get married anyway!)
5. what is my best friend's theme song?: "music" - leela james
6. what is the story of my life?: "afro puffs" - the lady of rage (hahaha "rock on wit cha bad self!")
7. what was highschool like?: "underworld thang" - dj mei-lwun ("you have your pimps, your palyas, your macks..")
8. how can i get ahead in life?: "yes yes ya'll" - sergio mendes ("freak freak ya'll! don't stop, don't quit")
9. what is the best thing about me?: "oh sailor" - fiona apple
10. how is today going to go?: "deep dark jungle" - victor calderone vs. mauro (..ooh, that can't be a good sign)
11. what is in store for me this weekend? "love yourself" - blue six (..see? you can't make this stuff up! i'm not saying it wasn't true lol)
12. what song describes my parents?: "give a little" - andy caldwell & jay-j
13. to describe my grandparents?: "empty streets" - late night alumni
14. how is my life going?: "we be clubbin" - ice cube (lol)
15. what song will they play at my funeral?: "lone cat (holding on)" - ben watt
16. how does the world see me?: "be without you" - mary j blige (...that's a good one, actually)
17. will i have a happy life? "goodnight and go" - imogen heap (hmm)
18. what do my friends really think of me?: "joy" - temposhark (aww :)
19. do people secretly lust after me?: "backwoods discoteque, part 2" - scissor sisters (...what does this say about me? i'm a little worried frankly)
20. how can i make myself happy?: "pico de gallo" - uneaq (...mexican food, what?)
21. what should i do with my life?: "from the lab" - colossus (.. i don't get it)
22. will i ever have children? "this love (kanye west remix)" - maroon 5
23. what is some good advice for me? "falling (joe carrano mix)" - abigail
24. what's that smell? "oh so beautiful" - curtis mayfield
25. what is my signature dancing song?: "goodbye" - hil st. soul (..that's really sad)
26. what do i think my current theme song is?: "purest one" - etro anime (...that's not hopeful)
27. what does everyone else think my current theme song is? "hung up (tracy young mix)" - madonna (hahaha)
28. what type of men/women do you like?: "i want you back (z-trip remix)" - jackson 5 (not mj!)
29. now click next and that will be the subject of this bulletin: "me myself & i" - beyonce
30. your overall theme song? "rapido" - alma matris (...not exactly)

ok no one's surprised but i am moving up to asheville today and yeah i'm still packing. i have been up all night jacked up on coffee trying to get all my shit together and i'm still not done.

it's not a good look.

i am gonna try my best to leave d-town by midday. it may or may not work. and classes start tomorrow, which i am really not amused by. although, on some positive shit, if i can make it through this week i think i'll be aiight. one can only hope.

back to packing, bitches! (slightly panic face)

listening to: etro anime - diablo
" sometimes there's a devil sitting on my shoulder
what is it about me? he just won't go away
and though we have gotten to like each other
i've gotta find me and angel
someday"

crisis averted. someone agreed to cover for me at work tomorrow. that will really help me out a lot. please understand that i've been really stressed out and this blog may occasionally be used to rant, and isn't meant to hurt anyone's feelings (usually - if it is, then whoever you are, you've really fucked up, because i'm a very easy going person for the most part). so i'm home now and looking forward to relaxing tonight for the first night in a while. nothing really interesting to say, i guess.

listening to: ernesto - devil's gotta run
"let your home be a place where love is warm"

ok so this is the dc replacement. that shit got tired and i wasn't feeling it anymore, so i never posted. it's still out there, but you know.

this week is mad stressful. i'm trying to get everything ready to move back to school. btw um i coulda waited like another month before that shit. however, it seems it is time, and i'm working all the time and trying to see everyone here and spend time with my family, and it's a lot of pressure. i know it'll work itself out, but in the meanwhile it's kinda killing my soul.

here's the latest dilemma: today i'm supposed to work at 330 to come in early for a coworker to close at the store, and tomorrow i'm supposed to close as well. see, i'm not happy with closing both of my last nights, so i've been trying to switch out for tomorrow night, but none of these motherfuckers want to step up. and i have helped out people several times in a relatively short period, so i'm just a bit resentful. and i'm trying to decide if i want to just call out and go completely sketch like that. i know that's not very professional, but at the same time, i need a fucking break.

speaking of, i really should get ready, so that will have to be all fa now.

listening to: strange fruit project - liberation
"the harder the struggle the more reason for us to live it"

this is the new shit